Wow..not only have I not posted in a while, but what I posted for 'future plans' was completely changed, lol.  Its a little sad and bittersweet. Of course I did not plan on my life/relationships/etc turning out this way, but it's just a step in the road.  Makes me not want to make so many promises to my 'fans' for the future....cuz I know I have so many, lol.

No matter what has happened to me in life I always feel like there is a bigger plan than what I can imagine...and there is. It happens for a reason, to help me grow, to help another grow, its harder to see the good when you feel surrounded by bad, but I find in life I find the bad less and less detrimental to how I feel I am as a person. Maybe a relationship didn't work out....but I gave it my all. Was it my fault? Sure some parts probably. Will I find love again? Yes I will! Do I deserve someone that can be my true 'soulmate?'  Yes!!! And if I haven't met him yet, I will find him one day. I know I will...and I will no longer hate the process, or the parts where I am alone. It is time for growth so I can grow and be more me so that when I find him, I will also be what he is looking for (because I'm that awesome). Can I be happy in the process?  I am learning!!! :) Hehe.

I joke but I'm also dead serious in what I've learned over the past 8-10 years. I can't even describe it well, and I get a little overwhelmed when I think about it. I'm not where I want to be (WHO IS???) but I don't even recognize who I was back then. Funny how that is. I've been through lots of joy and pain and I'm grateful for it all. I'm more forgiving of other's faults and things done against me, especially from the past. One part of me that is returning and transforming me is my positive perspective. I still struggle sometimes but I try to make a choice every morning to be more than I was the day before. You can do so much if you proactively think that each morning.

So I guess my message is this: Allow yourself to feel the pain, but also allow yourself to feel that no matter what you deserve the best. Because you are awesome....even if you have flaws...they just make you, you. Embrace yourself.

Self-love
-Jan

P.S. I now have two little angels: Kira and Ella. I got Ella a few weeks ago from Lafayette, La. She's a 5 pound supposed schnoodle (poodle/schnauzer mix). They are awesome together and I finally have that small dog I've been searching for a long time.

Free to Be Me- Francesca Battistelli

At twenty years of age I'm still looking for a dream

A war's already waged for my destiny
But You've already won the battle
And You've got great plans for me
Though I can't always see

(Chorus)
'Cause I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together 
But perfection is my enemy
On my own I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me

When I was just a girl I thought I had it figured out 
My life would turn out right, and I'd make it here somehow
But things don't always come that easy 
And sometimes I would doubt

(Chorus)

And you're free to be you

Sometimes I believe that I can do anything
Yet other times I think I've got nothing good to bring
But You look at my heart and You tell me 
That I've got all You seek 
And it's easy to believe
Even though

(Chorus)





Inspiration of the day :)

-Jan

If you're reading this in email form, I suggest you also look it up online.  I've posted some pics and I don't think they are sent in emails.



Anyways......
This past weekend was pretty darn fun.  And I admit, I really needed it.

Saturday Jen and I went to the Renaissance Festival. We had a blast.  I wore my elf ears and a red skirt.  We ate tons of food and walked around lots.  We had many pit stops since someone gets tired easily now ;)  We saw a jousting match and had 3 glasses of their Cream Ale (cream soda).  But I think we both agree that the smoked turkey leg MADE the day, lol.  We were on our way home when we decided to get another refill of Cream Ale and share the turkey leg.  Needless to say we were disappointed when it was gone. We had such a good time, now we have dad convinced that he wants to go too.  So next weekend, after Jen's baby shower...me, dad, Jillie and Lollie will be going...yay!

Saturday night I stayed at Lorraine's.  Sunday for lunch we ate at Sakura's...sushi, yum. Then we made our way to the children's museum. Lollie's Minnie Mouse B-Day party was there! We had a good time, watched the kids play (big and little, lol), and had a parade with Lollie as the lead bringing us to the party room across the street. She only got a 10 minute nap all day, but became hyper when she got to her party.  She must have climbed up and went down the slide a million times.  By the time we had the parade to get cake and open presents, she was getting tired. I think her favorite present was a sleeping bag/blanket from her mommy and daddy.  She instantly curled up with it on top of the table, and drug it around with her until we left to go home. I got some really cute pictures of her and Jillie at the party.  I have the most beautiful nieces....and yes, I'm biased....but it's still true! ;)




The Birthday Girl!

Minnie Mouse B-Day Cake

The start of the Lollie B-Day parade!

LOVED the doll she got! Look at that beautiful girl!

Hehe, love the face
Inspecting the present the museum gave her. Can you say eyelashes???

Jillie, the rock climber

Isn't she just too cute

Have a good week....it's only Monday. Time to work on Jen's baby shower present. :)

I've been thinking a lot about my life lately. I've been re-examining everything.  The past year or so has been big for me.  ....now that I think about it, I really need to update my 'goal/bucket list.' Anyways, I feel like a teenager who is looking at their life again, and what they want out of it.  And in many ways I am. 

I am divorced. Anyone in that situation has issues to work out. What you did wrong, what you did right, what the other person did wrong (and right, don't forget that.  No-one is all bad).  Then you try the what-if game. What-if I was more assertive, what if I was prettier, what if I had paid attention to the HUGE signs, what if I had not settled? I can go on and on. It's a battle you can never win. But of course we play anyways. And while the person who leaves usually does most of this before leaving, things still find ways to creep up and make you wonder.

Here are some updates of me and some of my thoughts:

  • I am the strongest I've ever been. No, not physically (although I'm working on it), but mentally. If someone is mean to me I can walk away, or say something back...this is huge for me!  Also, just telling someone the truth...though it may hurt them.  Sometimes the person who teaches you how to be a better you is the one you have to hurt. I never want to see anyone hurt, but it is so freeing to be able to say what I feel.
  • At the same time I feel very fragile and unsure about some things...but that's life. I am still healing from the pains of past relationships and of the pains of life......life is tough GET A HELMET, and don't get hit so much! Learn form it! Lol....trying. 
  • Along with that, I am more independent....   and loving it. I have a job, income, and I do what I want in my free time....I've never experienced this before and it's just...awesome.
  • I am homesick...I've been feeling it the past few weeks, but it finally became a conscious thought.  Even though I am so much closer to my family now, I want to be closer than 1.5 hours away. To be able to go to a fair with them one evening.  Or pick up my nieces and go get ice-cream.....I want to be close. Of course, I love me time....but I want the option to see them when I want.
  • This week I started working out a bit again. I a playing a dancing game on my Kinect for about 30-45 minutes each day....so I am calling it Dancing out!  No, I will never do this in public...but it's fun, and Kira doesn't judge. ;)
  • Which brings me to karate.  It used to be such a big part of my life.  Gave me confidence, a better body (yay), and an outlet for when I was stressed.  I have really begun to miss that.  And though the dancing out is fun, I think it's time for me to look for someplace locally to work out...and let's face it, I need a social outlet other than work!
  • Financial responsibility!?!!  I am learning a crash course in it now that I'm not completely broke...and I've learned its harder than being broke! With extra money, I tend to spend, spend, spend...I have to keep that under control.
  • I am furthering my career. I am learning the ropes and become more confident in my abilities. I am getting some appreciation from other colleagues (yay for respect)....and I'm feeling more comfortable in my SLP 'skin.'


So yeah......I'm sure there's more but my brain is tired from thinking and I have a few more  hours of work to do for this job where I'm overworked, but love it at the same time...

-Jan

Lots going on for the next month or two.  This Saturday I will be helping Jen and Jared out putting the nursery together (also to give her a pedi), and going to a bonfire that night at Lorraine and Kris's, then Sunday is the Mitchell Family Reunion.

November 10 me and Jen (and whoever else!) are going to the Renaissance Festival!!! Haven't been in years, can't wait to go, trying to find an 'elf' costume there too. Or at least some pieces for it. The next day is Lollie's 2nd b-day party! The next weekend is Jen's baby shower, and right after that I leave for Indiana for the week.  That Sunday is Ryan Rushing's Halo b-day party!  Thanksgiving with Howk's family, etc, then Black Friday shopping!!!  

After Thanksgiving, Howk should be coming to visit me around the beginning of December, then it's Christmas, then I may go see Howk again the day after Christmas...we shall see. So anyways...yeah, got lots going on. Finally, lol.  

Oh! And my bestie, Lara, and I ...are collaborating on a new blog.  We (plus Anna) tend to send each other long emails for tips/tricks/product recommendations about make-up, beauty, clothes, etc. So one day we thought of the great idea to make it into a BLOG!  Hopefully we can get together tomorrow sometimes to set it up. Then after that we can post independently. Can't wait!

Other than that, I didn't really have much to say, just had time to do an update, so I did.


Random owl pic:


If you're reading this in email form.....it might be better to read this one online instead at http://shiny-distractions.blogspot.com/


I know, strange title. But that's what I'm gonna talk about today.

Teeth:
I got 3 of 4 wisdom teeth out this past Thursday.  Was supposed to be taken out during Fall break but because of the hurricane I had to use 2 sick days. Oh well, I had it planned and couldn't put it off any longer.  Mom came up and took care of me after I got it done.  I did pretty well, my dr. is awesome (Dr. Clement in Thibodaux, if you're wondering).  I'm recovering nicely, mom was even able to go home the next day. Today was my first day back at work.  Let's just say that the medicine did not work as well as it worked this weekend (just higher doses of ibuprofen and Tylenol). I think it was because I was moving around so much more.  Mainly had a headache all day, and it would get considerably worse when I needed to take medicine. Also had bouts of feeling like I was going to faint...maybe because I haven't been eating much? But overall, due to some school activities, I had a fairly light day and was glad for it....and VERY happy to go home today.

Energy:
With brings me to the energy part. For the past I don't know how long, I've been so listless when I get home.  I have the epstein-barr virus (AKA the virus that causes mono).  Most people do, but I seem very susceptible to getting it (reactivation) whenever I'm stressed or don't get enough sleep for a long enough period of time.  Well, stress levels have been crazy at work, which also means bringing home work....and not getting enough sleep. The perfect mixture to get mono again.  I've been feeling extra tired lately, so I'm guessing that's what has happened.  But you can't do anything but rest...so that's what I am/have been trying to do.  This past weekend, while in some pain, was awesome because I got to rest so much.

There are these new B12 5 hour energy shots we've all seen on TV, etc. Drs even say it's safe to take every day because they have not much caffeine  are easy on the heart, and usually low sugar and calories.  Anyways, bought some at the store the other day to see if it would help my 'OMG I just want to take a nap when I get home' issue.  WOW, within 5 minutes I felt like I was awake again.  I was taking the usual hour and 15 minute drive home and it was great.  It is actually the only reason I am able to write this right now.  I am sensitive to energy things, and my heart isn't racing, I feel no different. Only that I am now not in need of a nap.  Now I need to add these things to my monthly budget, lol.  I figure I will be so much more productive with just a few per week (even though it's safe to use every day).  I am going to see if I can find them in bulk somewhere, maybe Sam's. So yeah, I recommend them.

Make-up:
This one is for the girls.  Lately I have been LOVING those 24 hr tattoo eye shadows. They have primer built in and I have many of the colors. They stay on all day and are just awesome.  I don't use an eyeshadow primer for them.....except for the white. The white is sort of glittery and tends to make my face too sparkly.  I recently got a plumish color (bottom right in the pic)...wore it today and LOVE it.  The color goes on light, so if you use multiple layers to put it on, it looks like a smoky plum. Very pretty.  Mom recently got the orange one, gonna have to try that one soon. Anyways, the plum makes blue eyes POP, for yous out there with blue eyes. I also put a tiny bit to line half of my lower lid and it looks great.

Left to right, top then bottom row: Blue, chocolate (also lovely for blue eyes), green, sparkly white, gray (very dark...also kind of sparkly), and  plum.

Vanity shot with plum on, hehe

Oh, I got Bare Minerals waterproof eyeliner....it is awesome. Best I've used. It's very soft and you can easily line your lids, and it stays all day.  I just wouldn't use it on your waterline...it messed with my eyes. Speaking of Bare Minerals, they have a new pressed powder foundation that you put on with a brush.  It's sooooo much easier than messing with the loose powders, and you only need the one compact.  It's also much more portable.


Also, my new fav way to calm my always irritated skin (and to relax/pamper myself).  I've been going crazy on Pinterest finding naturally good things for you...and they always talk about milk and honey and oatmeal. Yes, women in my family....expect this from me by Christmas ;)



OHHHH, also got a Mr. Coffee Keurig coffee machine! I LOVE IT!  Even better, the principal at one of my schools has one, so we trade flavors to try.  I have to say, one of my favorites is the Chai Latte.  It's relaxing and I drink a cup almost every night.  I don't have to add lots of sugar either.....so if you like Chai...you'd like this.  I also got the filter where you can add your own grounds, so that saves on money.  But all in all, VERY glad I treated myself with this one.


Ummm, so what else?

Found out Jenn and Jared are going to have a baby GIRL this January!  Exciting!

Howk and I are going to DISNEY next June with Lorraine and Kris......soooo excited.  We've both only been once, I was 6 and he was 7 or 8.

Work is going better, learning the ropes even more, love working with the kids.  Funny how it works out, I wanted a job in healthcare to make more money....but could only find this job.  And now I can't even fathom working at a hospital....not having summer off? What??? hehe.  Oh, and biscially got a 'raise' I guess you could call it (since I'm working the full school year)...it's so nice to be able to afford everything, have extra to save up, and be able to cook again. :)

Speaking of Pinterest, if anyone has any requests for Christmas presents I will take them.  I actually have money to buy presents this year, but you know me. I love to be crafty too.

I have an infatuation with owls now...as most of you know.  And have it baby blue?  Love it!

I have also renewed my interest in CANDLES.  So yeah....I burn like a million every night....I enjoy it, so who cares, hehe. PS did you know there are HUGE tealight candles now?  About the size of 3 put together.



See what you can accomplish when you have energy!!!???!!!

All in all, I guess you could say between work, family, and boyfriend... nothings perfect... but I'm still ecstatically happy and appreciative to be where I'm at and who I'm with.  And that's just awesome!

ttyl
-Jan



Pics are of flowers my special someone has gotten me in the past month or so :)

Anywaysss....

I finally have internet (though spotty...for now) at my house!!!  ......this will hopefully mean I can start posting more...but don't get too excited...you know how I am. 

I have soooo much to update u on!!!!  But between my keyboard moving around these keys and making me mess up, and this headache ...it will have to wait for another day.

I've miss you!  :'(   hehe

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I have a Masters degree in Speech-Language Pathology, I am also a photographer, daughter, dog-lover, painter, tech-dependent, procrastinator, I am sort-of outside the box...not that I try to be, and many more. But most of all, I'm easily distracted ;)

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